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19 May 2008 @ 09:02 pm
I've got great friends *thumbs up*

08 May 2008 @ 10:08 pm
I'm considering writing a book. About my life and my indescribable, numerous, and completely insane crushes. It's only fair to my conscience to write down what these boys do to my mind without even trying.

I have a feeling that no matter what, I will probably always have a crush on this one boy ranging in sizes, depending on the day. I know that it is completely irresponsible to having any feelings past friendship for him, but I can't really help the way he makes me feel. I can't explain the way he makes me feel wanted one minute then the next we don't even look at each other in the hallway. Or maybe I could and I just want it to not be that.

I'm thinking a big problem is this NBK problem. I swear to God it's eating away at me. And my friends all being past that stage is beginning to eat at me.
27 April 2008 @ 12:02 am
First of all, I'm getting super annoyed with my damn layout. It was SUPPOSED to be super cool, but now you have to highlight the page to see what I write. So, yeah, I'm searching for that tonight.

I'm getting back into that phase where I want my life to have romance in it. The cause? That's not important. But I went a month and a half with being semi-happily single and flirting openly with guy friends. And being a pedo and drooling over Nick Jonas. Now, I'm back into this self-pitying mood where I want/need my first freaking kiss. I'm not so bad where I just sit and talk about how miserable it is to deal with, but when I'm alone I listen to the absolute sappiest music I have.

I think my biggest problem with above problem is that there's one person that I want to fulfill my problem and no one else will do. So, my biggest problem is my expectation. I'm building myself up just to be knocked down.

On a less "serious" note, I have over-active tear ducts! It's probably because when I actually want to cry I just don't and make myself stop, then when I yawn my eyes flood up with tears and it probably looks like I'm having issues. So, I definitely need to research that or SOMETHING.

That's all for now, I need to update my profile appearance since it currently looks trashy.
22 April 2008 @ 08:53 pm
Today was pretty fun. The day included some Guess Who, a personal record in discus (101'3"), "buying a car", and various unneeds to knows.

I really don't know what to talk about.. Uhm, Brian's back. That's definately interesting. I want a fucking boyfriend like you can't believe. And I'd really like my first kiss before I graduate, but thats in like less than a month so I'm not seeing that happening.

I really desperately want two things right now, a cuffs of love bracelet and a tattoo. Only one of which I see in the relatively near future.

This is Discobolus... he throws discus weirdly... but I hit a personal record so good ol' Discobolus is here to help me show you my accomplishments. =]

Au Revoir ...(I think?)
16 April 2008 @ 09:57 am
Hullo, invisible readers... That probably don't exist. I've decided that I dun like just sitting and talking anymore. So, I may start a photojournal. It may be slightly more interesting.

So, if I don't end up taking a picture during the day I'll post pictures of things that happened during my day.

But I feel it will be more interesting then.. me complaining =]

25 February 2008 @ 11:09 pm
Well, ,my dog almost drowned tonight. That was the most ridiculously sad thing ever. Luckily he's okay.

I haven't spent so much time outside in freezing weather without a coat ever, Most of track practice then like a half an hour screaming for my dog to swim. That sucked. I was shivering so fucking much.

And my brother's coming home since that's his dog. Poor kid I'm sure is freaking out.

Anyway I'm about in tears and I dont feel like crying 'til later in my warm bed.

Pip Pip
23 February 2008 @ 12:17 am
I need to vent. I'm freaking out!!!

Ugh, call me a terrible person/friend, but when this one person bitches and moans and makes a HUGE deal out of EVERYTHING, it gets so fucking annoying. She complains about every tingle or pain she "feels" and expects everyone to drop what their doing and play doctor for her. It pisses me off!! Don;t get me wrong I totally understand that she is probably feeling all these pains but they are either in her head, or have NO reason to bring so much fucking attention to. I just wish I could slap her and tell her to suck it the FUCK up. I swear to God.

Charlie Bartlett was a pretty good movie.. I seriously hate the girl in the movie but whatever.

And it was a baaaad idea to talk to Ryan. I love him, don;t get me wrong. But that's the problem. I love him, but I'm getting that oh so wonderful crush on him. However, this will not be spoken to anyone since, well, you know, He's married. I just fucking wish one of them was single, and I could try MANY ways of getting with them, in a completely non-sexual way (non-sexual does not include Kissing, making out, or cuddling, F.Y.I.). Apparently Brian will be on at some point this weekend, so who knows... maybe after meeting the family he's been totally turned off by her and the family... I can dream I guess.

Unfortunately, I'm still steaming over the first thing I spoke of though so I'm kind of unable to move past it.


17 February 2008 @ 11:09 pm
I just saw the Jonas Brothers in concert...

And wow. I've been to many a concert and this was by far the best I've been too. I took so many pictures it's disgusting, and the setup was crazy.

The stage was so cool. It had the lowest level than a second rising that was like two and a half feet off the ground and there was metal ramps up to the third section that had a video screen on front of it that lit the stage and played two videos, it was so amazing.

Then since Nick play drums he went up there and played a couple of times. OMG it was so cool. I can't even handle it.

Whenever I experience something monumental I can't come up with the right words for ANYTHING. But had incredible showmanship, and they song beautifully. They interact incredibly with the crowd. It really was an amazing experience, I'm so glad I wasted 50 bucks on it.

I bought a shirt and a poster. My boobs BARELY fit into the fricken shirt I have to like oil my breasts so they'll slide in there.

And some girls need to learn that holding your hands up in the air for an ENTIRE concert is only cool if it's a christian concert praising God. But at the Jonas Brothers, it pisses people off, mostly me.

I met two girls, one was 22 and the other had CRAZY fricken hair. My mom would kill me.

The Jonas Brothers striped ^_^ Oh man it was beautiful. I wanna go to another badly.

Be back after the commercial.

11 February 2008 @ 09:13 pm
Saw Hot Rod and Hot Fuzz. Both were funny. The song You're The Voice from Hot Rod is Awesome!! I'm borrowing Pan's Labyrinth from my friend Breanna. I need to make a list of movies I want to own/see. I might do that right now.

Across the Universe (Own)
Harry Potter 5
Pan's Labyrinth
Transformers (Own)
Step Up 2 the Streets
Vantage Point
30 Days of Night
101 Dalmations (Own)
10000 B.C.

My like life is so deluded it's disgusting. Whenever I go so long without talking to Edward and Jacob, I end up liking my friend from school. Lame. I could get in so much trouble for liking him, too.

I made granola bars! They smell wonderful. And they taste BRILLIANT, oh man.

I also lifted today. I'm pretty sore already. Tomorrow morning's gonna suck.

My lips are chapping. The sons on bitches.

I'm also such a loser that I downloaded a CD cause it had a cool cover =]]]]

Pip Pip

I am awfully tired as well.
09 February 2008 @ 09:12 am
Shoot, I forgot to write TWO DAYS IN A ROW.

I think I've decided what I want a tattoo of. The words Seventy Times Seven. Not only a sweet song but also a bible verse.

I heard of the real meaning behind the songs Seventy Times Seven and There's No "I" in Team. It's a sad story but it makes the songs sooo much better.

I FOUND MY PHONE!! I don't think I ever mentioned I lost it... but I did. But it's back.

I'm really tired too. It's early-ish in the morning.

And oh man my dream last night was... ridiculously what I've wanted for sooo long. The guy at my school (not edward or jacob) who I'd had a crush on for a long time, but dated all my friends, was hanging out with me and we were laughing and somehow ended on his bed. Then, I kissed him. So, we kissed for a while than he kind of in a round about way asked me to be his girlfriend. And I straight up told him I couldn't because of what I've seen him do to his other girlfriends... But that didn't stop us from making out again when we met in a different place. Oh man it was a great dream. Oh and I had a job in this dream, that's when I realized it was a dream. Haha.

Saw Fool's Gold. It was really good. I love Kate Hudson and Matthew McConaughey. They have the best chemistry on film.

Anyway I'm off to go see it again...